Hello ladies! Good evening!

Tonight, I am writing a post that is really close to my heart.

I just spent the last 30 minutes looking through my computer, and came across a file labeled “Paige’s Weight Loss Folder.”

This is what you would find inside of it if you were looking through my computer.

The one that surprised me the most was in the folder titled “Private.” Inside that file is a secret video that I took of myself one day. I was in my bra & underwear, criticizing the parts of my body that I wanted to change.

I looked at the video today, and was reminded of why we should love our bodies RIGHT NOW exactly the way they are. My body looked FINE in that video! I look the same now, and am 100% happy with my body! What’s the difference?

Then, I was harder on myself. I still had some good intentions, like I do now. Out of the self-goals I made above, a few are okay. Treat others as I’d want to be treated, control impulsive decisions, and be less sensitive to the less important things – I’m still working on the last one.

It’s crazy how hard we can be on ourselves.

The above screen shot are resolutions I made 4 or 5 years ago. I was much harder on myself. The crazy thing about those resolutions, is that I’d get to 127 in January, but then by February, I’d be back to 135 trying to force myself to 127 again. I’m almost 5’10 with hips. My body doesn’t like being 127. For YEARS I tried forcing myself to be that weight. And you know what’s crazy? I was NEVER satisfied! Once I hit 127, 126 was better. Once I’d hit 126, 125 would be better, and so on. All the way down until I physically could not lose another pound.

In 2011, my goals were better. I had more fulfilling goals, and I wasn’t as hard on myself. I began to accept myself more.

I started to think about who I really wanted to be.

In 2013, I made my most favorite New Years Resolutions yet, because they were really anchored in love. They were geared towards making me feel healthier (not having to lose weight).

This year, my Resolutions are my most favorite.

They are centered around loving myself, and doing things that make me feel great.

Five years ago, I would have been beating myself up to lose a few in the New Year. I would have felt defeated by February, and the draining cycle would continue. I would never be good enough for myself, and my worth would be dependent on how my body looked.

Today? Today I choose to love myself every single day. I might not be 127 pounds, but I love that I am not.

I am ME.

I went from being hard on myself to loving myself and loving my life.

Today, I am full of joy, full of love for my body, full of strength, I am more committed to myself and the people in my life, I enjoy all foods, and I do things because I want to do them, not because I have to.

I have never felt prettier 😉

Truly though, there came a point for me where I just decided to accept myself. I realized that if I couldn’t accept myself where I was, I’d never accept myself.

I didn’t want to live needing to be better all of the time. I just wanted to be. And now, I am.

It feels SO good.

I am ready to enjoy all of the things that truly matter in 2014!